Secret Garden

TGIF friends.

The weekend is finally here! This week has been extremely hectic for me. Not only has there been a lot going on work wise, one of my Best Friends has moved away from the city : ( It's truly the end of an era, though I am so happy for her and her new adventures.

With all that in mind, and my big epiphany, I felt more grounded and calm knowing that I was going to be setting new goals for myself. As of Today I have gone back to strict clean eating…no more cheating (i.e. no more chocolate, no more cereal by the bowlfuls and no more over eating like I've never seen cherries before…) yes people I am going back to clean eating, upping the protein and removing the things that are making me feel like garbage…

This weekend is going to be all about trying new recipes and making mistakes in the kitchen…

Stay tuned for the disasters miracles amazing new eats.

What I am wearing:
Dress: Dynamite (Sale baby 14.99!!!) 
Blazer: Dynamite (3 years and still looks brand new...)
Nails: OPI
Necklace:F21
Shoes: Chinese Laundry(Winners at least 6 years old)...These shoes are dying sadly.

 

 What are you doing this weekend?

Seeing Red

It's hump day (middle of the week), and well, I woke up feeling ready to take on the world.

You all know my woes with the scale but I decided to claim some of that power back…and what better way to do that then to wear red and feel ferocious. Ok I don’t  feel ferocious but I do feel confident, and, a wise woman (aka my posing instructor aka one of the most amazing women I know aka I am honestly blessed to have her in my life) told me that confidence is sexy and with confidence, you attract more of the same people in your life. ISN'T SHE SMART!?

I mean why is it that I don’t feel like the confident woman I can portray in my pictures? I want to be her and mostly, I am working on changing the attitude within me. So no more woe is me…(please smack me if I do), but more Whoa that's me! :)

That was my epiphany/AHA moment.

note to self: REMOVE pink nail polish....lol

 

What I am wearing:

 Dress: Max and Cleo

Shoes: DKNYC (I wear these like I have no other pair of heels but gosh they are so comfy) 

Sweater: Jacob

Necklace: NYC Street Shopping

Lipstick: MAC RED

  Have you had an AHA moment lately?

Post Competition Blues

As most of you know, one month ago I competed in my first figure competition and had an amazing experience. I met other competitors from the blog world, and was able to get my body in the best shape I have been in EVER.

However, I am not experiencing what some competitors call the Post Competition Blues. For one, when you're used to living at the gym and nnowo suddenly have free time on your hands, it can be difficult to not want to let your body rest and recuperate.

Food has become a love hate relationship. I still eat like I am in competition mode for the most part but then see something i must eat and I have to be careful not to binge. For me, I eat cereal like I've never seen it before. I kid you not. My sister saw me mix about 3 cereals into my bowl because I didn't want to miss out on any of them...and well she thought I was absolutely off my rocker and for me...its scary! Watching my body become a bit soft again is hard. as is not being too critical.

But what's most disconcerting is the weight gain....it happened quickly for me. I am ten pounds heavier at the moment and while that may not seem like much, it shows on my frame. My skirts are a bit snug, and I gym shorts don't fit like they used to.

What's been helping me with the post Competition Blues is knowing I am not alone. I have been keeping up with other bloggers who have been just great resources! I have even had personal email to help me stay on point with grocery lists!

Chantelle  recently did a guest post which I felt was taken straight from my inner depths and discusses my fears and worries about post competition.

Then there is Figure Girl World, another amazing woman who gets it! their stories with the post competition blues were mirrors of my own worries and slumps. But at the same time I just found it so INTUITIVE that this is what they are writing about when I am feeling this way.

Currently I am working on the love hate relationship I am having with my body. I love how its filling out but I do miss being in the "peak" phase

courtesy of Pinterest

You can read about a few different stories Here, Here and here.

If any of you have your personal stories you can share with me I would love to hear from you. What do you when you're feeling blue?