52 days

Woke up today PUMPED and ready to hit the gym have an amazing workout and GULP have the dreaded weigh in.

Every 8 days until competition, Trainer and I get on that god awful calibrated scale and watch my weight fluctuate. This morning I cringed and hated the number I saw.

I GAINED 3 pounds yo! In 1 week! And last week I was down a pound. I am suffice it to say more than a little upset and have been stewing over this number since I have been super strict with the diet. Discouraging? Yes…

BUT IT MAKES ME WANT TO WORK HARDER and prove EVERYONE wrong. I CAN AND WILL DO THIS!

Here is the Workout for Today
AM - 25 Min warm up (Got to the gym a little early so did a quick elliptical Workout)
1 hour with the Trainer (hams (deadlifts that kill my grip), Shoulders, Back and Triceps and ABS) TALK ABOUT ONE POWERFUL WORKOUT!

PM - After a Day of sitting at the Desk, I will be doing a 45 min cardio workout….(thinking 20 min treadmill and 25 min elliptical cause the QUADS and GLUTES are still on fire from Yesterdays workout)

Meal Breakdown (including Supplements)

AM - 1 TSP Coconut Oil
        - 1 TSP FISH Oil
        - 10 Grams Glutamine
        - 10 Grams BCAAs

4 oz Salmon and asparagus (attached is a picture of the lovely meal)

POST AM WORKOUT SUPPLEMENTS
        - 5 Grams Glutamine
        - 10 Grams BCAAs

Meals for the rest of the day?
Salmon and Asparagus x 4 or 5

DESSERT:
Trident Cool Colada Gum (used to be a mint only girl....these days i am willing to try anything to keep my sanity) and Decaf Vanilla Chai Tea




OH and funny story…After my workout got ready for work….buttoned my skirt…but somehow managed to forget to do up my zipper! EMBARRASSING! A lady in the bus was kind enough to let me know…

Ah well…

Trying to see all of the bright things in life today, despite feeling a little down and sick of fish!

xoxo

Silk Saris & Sunshine Saturdays

Loves

I know its been a while since my last post but with travelling to Toronto for a friends wedding, and pulling a muscle in my neck to the point where I could barely move, its been an interesting long weekend.

As most of you know, I grew up in Toronto and going back home this weekend made me more than a little homesick. I miss the big city more than I thought I did  and more so than anything, I miss home, my family and friends. Leaving Toronto filled me with anxiety and of course, I couldn't hold back the tears.

Sigh...

Back in O town now, but thought I would share some of my Sari pictures from the wedding. My Brother found a great spot to take some pretty pictures.

what I am wearing

Sari - Borrowed from Auntie B

Jewellery - Bangles (India)

               - Ring and Necklace (Borrowed from Auntie R)

Shoes: - Nine West

XOXO

Highs and Lows of Competition Prep

Cupcakes (yes I am calling you that...just roll with it)

I recently had what I would call a MELTDOWN...yup a full blown tear-jerker in front of my Trainer. Trainer (as we will now call him) is a lovely man (I don't think he would like to be called lovely, I would say maybe sarcastic dry sense of humour?) who has been helping to whip my butt into shape and take no nonsense from me. I honestly love working out with him and feel I push myself well beyond the point I normally would. He is fabulous!

I was having a bad day last week and decided to hell with this god-awful diet. I am going to splurge, buy a cookie, throw out HALF and just enjoy a little guilty pleasure. How crazy is that that? Normally a fruit would have sufficed, but that too is off limits for me right now. So, I go and eat this half cookie and low and behold TRAINER CATCHES ME! What are the chances of something like that happening? I felt so guilty about this cookie that I didn't even get to enjoy it and stewed over it all day and was fretting over my following session with him the next morning. I was even thinking of excuses not to go and hopefully he would forget what he saw.

Instead I sucked it up and went. Trainer asked me about the cookie and I full out cried. It was ugly and awful and just plain wrong! But he rolled with the punches. And was more than supportive. I really thought I was in for a HUGE scolding.

Regardless of my Meltdown, I am 60 days shy of competing and I CANNOT WAIT! I love the training aspect of it I mean I adore being in the gym. Crazy right?
It's the dieting and limiting what I can eat that makes me crazy. I have however found a great group of fitness bloggers who have been helping me move along just by listening to their stories. BikiniorBUst is one of them as is my Twitter friend and fellow competitor @BeccaheartsEggs. Its wonderful to have people out there take no nonsense either.

And when those people come and tell you well "what's one bite? And what's one sip?" Or want to "tempt" you to fall off the rails, that's when you need to stick to your guns the most.

I am learning this the hard way. And I ask you now more then ever to help support me in the last leg of my journey, because I can only surround myself with people who are positive and can SUPPORT me...(not judge or question or make fun).

So...this has clearly turned into a rant but the point of this post was also to tell you about my Carb cycling and what I am eating for the next few weeks. Which is why my emotions are so high and low.