A Fine Balance

Chips? Yes Please!

2012-03-03T06:00:00.005-05:00

I have a serious case of munchies pretty much at the 2 or 3 PM mark. Usually a handful of Tamari flavoured almonds tide me over until my meal at 5 PM.

But some days you just need a change. I found this recipe (Ah-Mazing!) on a new blog find! Vanilla Bean Lean

I couldnt believe how tasty and wonderful these turned out! and I swear it really is egg whites! AND they actually taste like chips and satisfy that crunchy salty tooth.

All you need:
1: Egg whites
2: smidgen of water
3: add spices (I used Garlic salt and pepper like VBLean)
4. I baked at 350 until golden brown & crispy. and I did not turn them....(maybe 5 to 10 minutes?)

Mix all of the ingredients together, put a thin layer at the bottom of muffin pans, bake and enjoy! Best guilt free snack ever!

TRY IT!

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Expecting the Unexpected?

2012-02-29T06:00:00.000-05:00

What a conundrum that one is - right?

A few years back…ok…many years back tear-away pants were all the rage. Being a Human Kinetics Major, my go to wardrobe for school was sneakers, a t-shirt and of course (matching) tear-away pants. YEP the ones that had snap-on buttons all down the side. Talk about shapeless and unflattering (and also a moment where you look back and wonder "what was I thinking?"). What does this have to do with expecting the unexpected? Well…given that these pants were "airy", precautions had to be taken for potential mishaps. I learned that lesson once when one of the holes got caught on something and well….all the snap buttons came undone leaving what you would think would be a pretty embarrassing moment. But, I was prepared for such an occasion and always wore shorts underneath saving myself and others from indecent exposure!

It's the same with people. People never cease to amaze me. Their resilience, their compassion, their sheer will and effort at achieving their goals. Doing something that most people thought was absolutely impossible, and in short, making it POSSIBLE.

Experience has also taught me that sometimes, along the way, some people can become misguided in which unexpected things occur. Sometimes the only thing you CAN do is: raise an eyebrow; do a double take (i.e. ask "did that just happen?"); scratch your head in bewilderment and ponder the following question - "why?". But the lesson I've learned tear-away pants style is being prepared is one thing but so is learning to LET GO of preparedness and EMBRACE the unexpected. Because no matter how much you anticipate, something will take you by surprise.

Has something unexpected happened to you lately?

Blogger Award

2012-02-27T06:00:00.003-05:00

Recently I was honoured by Elaine of Following Augustine with the Versatile Blogger Award. I am always humbled when someone thinks of me for these things : ) Elaine is absolutely wonderful and her blog is an inspiration…and she's Canadian!

There are four rules for those who choose to accept The Versatile Blogger award:
1. Thank the person who nominated you for the award and include a link to their blog.
2. Select and nominate 15 blogs that you’ve recently discovered or follow regularly.
3. Contact your chosen bloggers to let them know that you are nominating them for the award.
4. Share 7 things about yourself.

I know time is precious and so I am going to modify numbers 2 and 4 I am only going to be doing 2 of each. Its not that there arent many wonderful bloggers out there, or that I don’t have 7 wonderful things to say, I just know it can be a lot to add so many new people and bloggers to the blog roll. But here are a few of my inspirations of late.

1. Tin Foils Tiaras a wonderful Ottawa blogger who discusses fashion on a budget!
2. Sunny Days and Starry Nights a constant source or love, inspiration and pinterest pictures!

And now 2 things you don't know about me.
1. I could eat eggs for every meal if it were possible.
2. I have trouble sleeping so, on nights like those, these blog posts are written :)

What have you done lately to pay it forward?

Chill Factor

2012-02-22T09:56:00.000-05:00

I hate the cold. Have I mentioned that before? I can say with confidence I actually loathe it. It doesn’t help that I am constantly cold all year round (A/C is not my friend), neither is walking (more like tiptoeing) outside when its slippery, ice and wet, praying I will keep my balance and not end up one with the sidewalk.

Besides having two left feet, I do however, enjoy Fall and Winter clothing. Thick sweaters, warm colours, and jackets.

What I am Wearing:

Jacket: Parasuco (Borrowed)

Scarf: (Gifted - but stolen! sigh!)

Boots: Nine West

Are you fan or foe of winter?

Strawberry Protein Pancakes

2012-02-10T15:06:00.000-05:00

Recently I had a discussion about my blog and why it was called "A Fine Balance". I tried to articulate how it was a journey - a personal journey on finding the balance in my own life, but that it was peppered with three of the things I adore Fashion, Fitness and Food. With a quick look at past posts however, it was suggested that the blog had become more fashion oriented and had let go of the two other aspects that are equally as important.

A suggestion was made to change the name of the blog but I am on the fence. While I am open to the idea of moving the blog forward in a new direction, I also love where "A Fine Balance" has brought me. In an effort to bring the blog back to an equilibrium I am going to try and ensure that there is a balance between all three aspects. And no time like the present to get back at it.

Today's post features one of my favourite morning eats: Strawberry Protein Pancakes

You will need:

1/3 Cup Oats

1 scoop Protein Powder (I used Beverly Cookies and Cream)

2 packets Stevia

1/3 cup Egg Whites

1 tbsp Ground flax

6 Strawberries

Cinnamon or Pumpkin Spice to taste

Blender (my daily Hamilton Beach Blender is available for $20.00 at Wal-Mart)

Note: Caloric content minus the ground flax and this may be off by a bit.

Protein	Carbs	Fat	Calories
41.83	27.5	2.1	296.22

Don't mind the mess on the counter!

So what if they're not circular? they taste just as yummy

What are your thoughts on a re-branding of the blog? Do you think A Fine Balance represents itself well? Looking forward to your thoughts!

Grey Matter

2012-02-05T06:00:00.002-05:00

Gloomy, cold and dark mornings can be downright uninspiring. Today was one of those mornings. It was a day for the easy, "go-to" (by go-to I mean ~~stolen~~ borrowed) clothing from unsuspecting family members. I secretly, but not so secretly borrowed this dress from Auntie R. I just fell in love! Such great detail and it fit like a glove (i.e. it should be mine! hint hint ;p).

I paired it with a pearl necklace and bracelet and black pumps. The outfit, matched my sombre mood…after all, its only a little grey matter.

What I am Wearing:
Dress: Max and Cleo
Pearls: Bijouterie Elysée (Montreal)
Pumps: Nine West

Year in Review

2012-02-01T06:00:00.022-05:00

Lovelies,

It's been a year since I started this blog with my first post entitled Golden. It's amazing to see the evolution and metamorphosis of this blog since that time. a Big thank you goes to all of you, my readers, who have supported me through the changes, cheered me on to accomplish my goals and been there for the best and worst outfits : ) Below are some of the outfits, and memories that you have all been there for.

Thank you again and I hope this year will bring even more amazing things to share.

Mustard Seed

2012-01-26T06:00:00.000-05:00

There once was a time when I wouldn't be caught dead wearing colour, let alone mustard yellow and blue together. In fact this get-up brings back some faded memories. It reminded me of kindergarten and the primary colour paintings that a lot of us made before nap time. I can almost smell the non-toxic paint (or wait…was it non-toxic back then?) and see my 4-year old self with an over-sized paint brush, three pots of paint (red, yellow and blue) making a horrible mess of things, while at the same time thinking 3 lines of dripping paint on construction paper were a masterpiece. Let's be honest, I would still have fun painting with an over-sized brush, three pots of paint and construction paper. And yes, I would still think it’s a masterpiece. Old habits die hard...

What I am wearing:
Cardi: Atmosphere (UK) - Gifted
Top: RW & Co.
Jeggings: Garage
Shoes: Nine West (Model:Flax)
Necklace: The Bay (this necklace came with a big stone which I took off)
Bangle: I got it from my Grandma :)

Do any of your outfits make you nostalgic?

Blackout

2012-01-23T06:00:00.000-05:00

There are some days where nothing but a LBD (little black dress) will do. This dress was a HAVE to buy after I saw a wonderful friend rock it to work almost 2 years ago! What's even better is when that HAVE to buy item is on a double clearance sale. Sometimes there is nothing better than scoring a great piece at a bargain.

Legs are looking a bit pasty....yuck....

What I am Wearing:
Dress: United Colors of Benetton
Scarf: Hand me Down
Boots: Hush Puppies
Bangle: Coach

Snow Bunny

2012-01-16T13:56:00.000-05:00

This past Saturday, on a blistering cold day, Kat from a Second Glance and I decided to venture out and take some pictures of our snow gear. When I say cold I mean -30 Celsius! For my American friends, that’s -22F. Normally I balk at the very thought of being outdoors, let alone agreeing to being outside willingly, but a decision had been made to get together and so we did (Kat I must like you a lot ;)).

Though cold, it was a bright and beautiful day. Kat and I took turns taking each others photos between running back to the car to warm up. It was definitely a day for a warm mug of hot cocoa that’s for sure.

What I am Wearing:
Coat: COACH (bought last year)
Scarf: COACH Oscelot (Last year)
Gloves: COACH (2 years old) …I'm sure you can see a theme here….but that’s what happens when you work for a company for 3 years!
Leggings: Aritzia
Boots: Pajar

What do you do to keep warm during the winter? How do you brave the cold?

Red, Black & Gold all Over

2012-01-05T15:28:00.000-05:00

I personally don't thrive on cold, but one of my favourite things about the colder season is outerwear.
If I could have it hover just above the freezing mark, I would probably be the happiest person in the world. It's cold enough for those wool jackets, but not cold enough for me to throw fashion out the window for the sake of being warm.

My favourite item has to be the black scarf with gold specs that I received as a gift many years ago. Its not just the scarf but the sentimental value that is holds.

You may be wondering why am talking about the scarf so much. Sadly, about a week after these photos were taken, the scarf was stolen....from my desk at work. :(

It was a very sad Friday afternoon when I discovered it was missing as I was getting ready to home. I'll admit I did cry on the bus ride home and people may have thought I had lost my marbles, but in that moment I needed to grieve for something that had brought me much joy. I am sad that someone I work with felt the need to swipe the item, I have to hope that the new owner will take care of it as much as I did.

I will however take that person out if I ever see them in the halls wearing it....I kid....not...

My favourite scarf...le sigh....

Jacket: Old Navy
Scarf: Gifted

Has something you liked intensely gone missing from work?

New Year, New Goals

2011-12-30T11:57:00.000-05:00

As 2011 comes to a close, I decided to take a quick look back at the biggest goal I set for myself. Competing.

When I make a commitment, whether or not I want to do it, I follow through. Don't get me wrong, my dream of competing was realised. And though I had many ups and downs along the way, I did something I thought was impossible. For me the hardest part was conquering a deeper fear. A fear of being on stage and not making a fool of myself. Worst case scenario, having my suit malfunction!

With 2012 just around the corner new goals are being put down to paper and I am going to make them a reality. A new date has been set for my next competition March 31, 2012. This means another round of kicking my own butt, and I am hoping all of you will be around for the second ride! I'm most grateful for the love and support you all have showered me with and it all started with this blog. I am looking forward to writing more and getting back full swing into what has brought me so much joy.

I also received some more pictures from my fitness photoshoot with Andrew. I cant wait to share more of these pictures with you in another post.

What goals are you setting for the new year?

Guest Post: Dressing for Wellness through Hard Times

2011-12-05T06:00:00.000-05:00

Many of us forget that dressign for our body types can actually make us feel good, especially when times are tough. The following is a guest post from Jackie Clark who is research assistant the Mesothelioma CancerAlliance. Jackie has a bachelors degree in English and a minor in fitness and nutrition.

Whenyou’ve been diagnosed with cancer,it completely changes your outlook on life. Patients that suffer from variousterminal diseases often focus on the statistical survivalrates and how much time they have left, instead of focusing on themselvesand what they can do to make their time left memorable.

Taking the time to care for yourself can help you get through the hard times.While working may not necessarily be an option, keeping yourself groomed anddressing nicely can truly change the way you feel about things.

Clothes can be more empowering than people give them credit for. Feeling goodabout yourself on the outside can help you heal the hurt, confusion and pain onthe inside. Empowering yourself through how you dress does not mean you have tooverdo it. Personally I have found that offering advise and taking my closeloved ones diagnosed with cancer to their appointments and then the mall reallyenhances their overall spirit. Seeing the smile on my aunt’s face as she walkedout of her first chemotherapy session in her new blouse was priceless.

Insteadof wearing go-to comfort clothes, try something new such as a trendy sweater orfashionable blouse. Another option would be to take a simple back shirt forexample and pair it with a warm patterned scarf. It takes what would normallybe a simple outfit and makes it fun and trendy.

Anothertip I would like to emphasize is accessorize, accessorize, accessorize. Addinga chunky bracelet or an eye-stealing ring can turn any outfit into ashow-stopping piece. Other accessories include shoes and purses. Boots of alltypes, cowboy, leather and Uggs arevery in and seem to the leading trend now and for many years down the road. Anyboot flat or heeled can turn skinny jeans into a cute outfit and pair that withan oversize bag and you cannot help but feel beautiful with our without acancer diagnosis.

Getting a cancer diagnosis is life altering and never easy. It’s painful in away that most people do not understand. However, just because you get thatdiagnosis does not mean you should ever give up on yourself. You are still you,diagnosis or not. Dress like you are cancer free and you will be!

Read more posts by Jackie here: http://www.mesothelioma.com/blog/authors/jackie/

Fall-tering

2011-11-27T22:04:00.000-05:00

The past few weeks have been busy beyond belief. Somewhere between insanity and plain having lost my marbles, I've decided that I can manage three jobs, gym, studying, cooking? and have a semblance of a personal life. Most people tell me to cut back, but my problem is I ENJOY having things that keep me occupied and busy. I am a bit tired, but I feel that having this drive keeps me in balance. Personally, I prefer to do SOMETHING rather than plant my butt in front of the sofa most evenings. Granted, I do enjoy curling up to a great movie now and then, but ask me about what's going on in the world of television and I really don't have a clue.

And I have to be honest. In recent days, MOST mornings I scramble to get ready and be at work on time. So my outfits stray towards the simple, classic and my favourite NO-FAILS.

Personally I find a great button up shirt can be dressed up or down in so many ways. I decided to pair my burnt orange coloured shirt with a classic black skirt. My twist - a funky pair of rust coloured boots to change the outfit and its look.

What I am Wearing:
Skirt: Smart Set
Blouse: Simons
Boots: Town Shoes
Hat: F21
Scarf: Gift

How do you deal with the time crunch? What are your thoughts on multiple jobs? How do you wind-down?

Bang On

2011-11-14T10:28:00.003-05:00

As promised, I am committing to produce one quality post a week.

This week's dilemma is a discussion on hair...again. As most of you know I received the Hana Professional Flat Iron. ave I mentioned that I am in love?

But my question today is about bangs. It seems every now and again, I get the urge to do a fringe. On the days it works, well...It look fabulous.

And the days, it doesn't....It can be a nightmare.

What are your thoughts? Bang on this winter season?

xoxo

Hana Hair Heaven

2011-10-27T09:02:00.001-04:00

Friends,

I have to apologise for being MIA for a MONTH! I haven't forgotten about the blog or the lovely bloggers out there that I follow and I have been following but havent had the opportunity to post. Sometimes life has a way of getting complicated and taking over. I'm going to promise to get back into it and start off with at least one post a week.

Please forgive me!

Today, after a month and a half waiting for a product to arrive I am finally able to discuss a product I was asked to review. I am feeling so humbled that there are companies out there that think I would be a good person to discuss tools that most women use - Today's post is about the Flat Iron.

We've all been there....Looking for the right straightener to make our hair look smooth and straight.

Hana Salon sent me an amazing package of goodies but for the most part it has been to review their flat iron.

How cool is all this stuff? Can I say the eyeliner is working fabulously! :)

The Hana Professional Flat Iron - surprised me! I have been an avid CHI user for years and was unsure of whether or not I could change over. I am in love! I'll be showing you pictures of the final product in a different post but I wanted to show you some of the things that they sent me. I have to say its one of the Best Flat Iron's I have used in a long time and believe me this hair has gone through many different types of straighteners. And, it has a two year warranty!

One product I will be ordering to try from Hana is their Moroccan Oil. Cant wait to tell you all about it when I have had a chance to use it too!

Have you used a HANA Product before?

Say Yes To The Dress

2011-09-28T20:54:00.002-04:00

As promised here are some more pictures from my Bridal Gown shoot from this past August. As I mentioned Andrew the talented photographer who's taken pictures of me here and here, was the creative lens behind the photos. Luxe Bridal Boutique of Ottawa generously lent out these dress and gave me (seriously?) the opportunity to wear them. Words escape me! What a great experience this was...so you get to relive it with me.

A big Thank you to all who gave me this opportunity!

Blushing Bride

2011-09-22T11:03:00.001-04:00

Ok

CLEARLY not blushing….nor a bride. But, this past August, I was given this AMAZING opportunity to be a model for Luxe Bridal Boutique in Ottawa and do a photoshoot in some of their gorgeous gowns. I'd like to backtrack here for a minute and just point out that I am NOT a model. I have no experience behind a camera (minus the "shoots" that Kat and I take). But I have to say, this was one of the most AMAZING experiences of my life. If it hadn't been for Andrew, I'm not sure I would have done the shoot at all. But, the fact that he saw something in me - well….I was floored, humbled and taken aback!

The pictures were taken at the brand new Ottawa Convention Centre and the hope was to do a "stylised" Bridal shoot. One thing I wasn't so thrilled about….my makeup. We won't go there but all in all I enjoyed the experience. My Hair was done by the fabulous Cut+Blo designer and owner off of Murray St.

Apologies again for slacking on posts. I havent really taken any photos for the last little bit, because as I have said…feeling uninspired by my closet these days. Hopefully, this will tide you all over until I get some of that inspiration back. Part two of pictures will be posted shortly!

XOXO

N

Blue Bird

2011-09-14T15:18:00.000-04:00

I've been slacking lately. I know. Apologies for not responding to your lovely comments or posting on your blogs! I have every intention of catching up and getting back into the swing of things. I've been feeling very uninspired by my closet lately. I have things to pull together outfits no doubt. But….my biggest deterrent to finding things that are "Wearable" is that the closet is in utter chaos these days. Must go though it all reorganise ASAP.

On top of the closet confessions, I've had some pretty tough days with tummy troubles back in full swing. This time around we are cutting out veggies/fibre from my diet because it seems to irritate me more than give me the nutrients I need. Talk about bummer because A) I love veggies and B) I hate the toll its taking on my body and the pleasure I get from eating broccoli. Yes I know I am slightly different ;). Looking forward to my Doctors appt in one month to figure out if this is still a bad case of IBS, Crohn's, Colitis, potential stomach ulcers? or some other Gastro-intestinal related issue. I want answers!

On the bright side - Starting a new workout schedule on Monday with a 4 day cycle! Time to gain more muscle, get toned and stop getting through half-a$$ed workouts. Most of all, get back to my early am routines! I have the rest of this week to take it easier. But, no nonsense Monday's are beginning. Who's in with me :)

Summer seems to be coming to an end too, so the next few posts will be the last of the outfits worn on warmer days. Kat took these photos of me and we played around with the setting and some of the photos had a blue tinge. Loved the effect, though we're not exactly sure how or why it happened!

What I am Wearing:
Dress: Target
Blazer: Zara
Shoes: Nine West (these are one of the pairs I purchased in Miami - love the silver flats!)
Necklace: Gifted

Inner Circle

2011-09-08T13:15:00.000-04:00

I have been VERY MIA on both the blog and commenting the past few weeks so first, APOLOGIES! I love you all and the support you've given me and I am constantly thinking about the great inspiration out there. I need to tap back in! I promise I will be back in full swing soon!

As the saying goes, when it rains it pours and well, that's pretty much my life in a nutshell these days. Both personally and professionally, things have been growing. I'm so thrilled at the new opportunities and challenges that I am being blessed with everyday. I'm learning to change my attitude in the way I see myself, others and the world and am making strides to see the positives in every situation.

I have recently been reading a book on leadership and one thing that has been discussed is who you keep in your inner circle. In my case its many of you who I find strength in, particularly in places I am weak. So thank you for having such a positive impact on me. You are not forgotten.

What I am Wearing:
Ruffled Top: F21
Skirt: Vintage (thrifted)
Belt: Banana Republic
Shoes: Ralph Lauren (these shoes used to be comfy….)

Who do you keep in your inner circle?

Back to the Future

2011-09-05T05:00:00.002-04:00

It taking you all back to a September 5th 28 years ago when I was born. Yup I am celebrating another year in the world and am so thankful for everything that I have been blessed with.

First its about thanking the people who have made me, shaped me and helped grow into the person I am today. My family. All of you. Without you, your constant love, support, guidance I could not have become the woman I am today.

To all my friends EVERYWHERE. How can I thank you for the memories, the laughter, the friendship? You've been a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen and always have a smile on your face for me.

My first birthday

This past year alone has been an amazing growing period. I found love and lost it, I learned that I am my own worst enemy, but I have more strength that I thought. I challenged myself and competed in my first fitness competition, suffered to highs and lows, started blogging, was able to see clearly, made new friends and am ready for new beginnings.

Can't wait to see what the future brings...

Lace, Lilac and Ladders

2011-08-31T09:57:00.000-04:00

It's mid week and already I feel I have done more than I normally do in 7 days. One of my biggest accomplishments was writing. Yes I write here on this blog and post. But I went back to my roots. Journaling with a pen and paper. AND. I wrote a letter. This letter was a goodbye of sorts. To someone who made an impact in my life and I have to say, it took me a VERY long time to let go. It was as if I had physically, emotionally and mentally turned a new leaf.

And then the greatest thing happened. The next after writing this letter, I woke up (on the right side of the bed ;p), and everything was as it was supposed to be. Calm. Centred. Right.

And so of course the day goes wonderfully as well. I work in an area that is absolutely wonderful places to take photos. Kat and I have been experimenting with different backdrops and we've been running into some excellent photo op locations. Its as if it was MEANT to be! I felt the ladder was so symbolic of where I am and where I am going. On to bigger things, and climbing to new heights.

What I am wearing:
Skirt: Dynamite borrowed from the bestest Sister ever….A.K.A. my only sister :P)
Lace Tank: Banana Republic
Sweater: Old Navy (thank you Groupon Coupons for giving 20 dollars worth of clothing for 10 oh yes!)
Shoes: DKNYC
Lips: MAC Up the Amp, and Angel mixed.
Pearl Necklace: gifted

Have you started a new chapter in your life? What makes you want to climb higher?

Third Times a Charm

2011-08-30T06:00:00.001-04:00

This past summer I had the wonderful opportunity of attending a wedding for one of my friends. One thing about Indian weddings are the multiple events and of course outfit changes!

Celebrating love and making it into a three day party is the only way to do it ;)

One of the things I love the most about Indian clothing are the vibrant colours, patterns and rich fabrics.

This outfit was borrowed from Auntie B

Beautiful jewelry to complete the look

And no wedding is complete without Mehndi (Henna).

With summer coming to an end I just had to share this. Lots of love to you all :)

Happiness

2011-08-28T23:15:00.001-04:00

It's waaayyyy past my bedtime. 11:03 PM and seem a bit wired but I MUST wake up early tomorrow morning for cardio. I recently told you all about my new beginnings. I made it through week one yay. But this week has been a week of trying everything new. I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and doing things that make me well. UNCOMFORTABLE and it's scary.

I've talked about comfort zones before, but I am now looking at every opportunity with fresh eyes. One lesson that I have learned and taken as my new outlook is "Life is to short to do something that makes you unhappy".

I'm the happiest when I am training, when I am pushing my body doing something completely out of its "element". The same goes go my mental, spiritual and emotional states. It's time to do things that make me happy and weed out the things that make me unhappy. And though some new beginnings and situations can push and test you, they can be the most rewarding thing you can do for yourself.

What I am wearing:
Skirt: BCBG
Top: F21 (Dubai 2006)
Shoes: DKNYC
Pearls: Simons (Montreal Chain store)
What are you going to do to make you happy? if there is something that makes you unhappy, what are you going to do to change it?

Purely Simple

2011-08-26T08:40:00.000-04:00

So its been a few weeks since I met with TRAINER and let me tell you the work out was great the conversation was great and I am so torn! I don't know what to do. I could continue to kill myself a work as much as I do. Or, I could step up, be a woman and recognize that there are other resources available to me and that I will have to make more of a concerted effort in my workouts. The answer seems purely simple right?

No its not! I sort have been gauging myself and my workouts and well they're no where near as much as I can do when someone is watching.

Ugh….I hate making decisions.

What I am Wearing
Blazer - Zara (I spent al ittle more than I normally do but I always buy classic pieces that I know I will have forever. I kid you not)
Jeggings - Seven Jeans
Shoes - The Bay (Expressions)
Watch - Coach
Rings - F21
Lace Tank - Aritzia

What do you do when you're faced with a "simple" decision? Because let's face it, they tend to be more complicated than we think!

Back to Black

2011-08-24T14:41:00.000-04:00

Sometimes, nothing makes me feel better than wearing black.

I mean it. You can do so much with it and I feel you can never go wrong with something classic. This dress reminds me a little of the Mad Men era - like my post on Full Skirts.

As you know I started a new nutrition plan on Monday and Its now day three and already I'm off. WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT? I thought I was pretty good with my macros (i.e. my food intake), but clearly I have some work to do. And making me accountable for what I put in my body and consume and more aware. Before I just guestimated my intake - now I realise much I UNDERestimated haha.

I have been thinking as well about what would make me less stressed and right now I am worried about the financial constraints of continuing my training with TRAINER. I have a few sessions left and then I will have to reasses. I would love to continue but I have had to take on a second job and so I don’t have my weekends or nights. It would be nice to have those back! But the workouts with my trainer have been and is such an important component of my life. At the same time I've been thinking about joining with Perfect Peaking and doing the whole package nutrition and workout plans which I KNOW will work, but I am worried about not having someone physically there to push me. A lot of things to think about and decisions to be made in the next little while. Yikes!

What I am wearing:
Dress: Zara (I bought this in Dubai in 2006)
Necklace: (I bought two of the same necklace in Kensington Market in Toronto and linked them together for a whopping total of $10 dollars)
Watch: Coach
Ring: Borrowed
Shoes: Expressions the Bay

Do you have a go-to colour that makes you feel fabulous? How do you cope with stress?

Blue Beginnings and Perfect Peaking

2011-08-23T08:57:00.000-04:00

It was C. O. L. D. this morning

It was a brisk walk to the bus and then another few minus of hanging out doing the "Warm up" dance you know what I mean..the shuffling of feet the little bit of pacing and the crossing of your arms again your chest to keep the cold air from making you shiver.

I had something to keep me company, - the New Jay Z and Kanye West CD Watch the Throne - So far AMAZING! I was willing to be outside a little bit longer if only I could listen to one more track! It’s a really great collaboration.

With the air changing so has my attitude on how I am going to tackle the next year of my life, do another competition and maintain some sort of semblance to eating and maintaining a healthy balance. In comes the dream team I have been DYING to work with! After hearing the great successes of my friends BikiniorBust and Ihearteggs, it was a no brainier! I wanted, no I NEEDED to be apart of this. After being fairly lax with my diet, I've started a new program that lets me be the master of what I eat. I.e. Clean eating but I wont have to eat a lot of fish or for every meal. It just means I need to staying within my macros.

So PERFECT PEAKING is now apart of my daily interactions - I have a feeling I am going to get to know Dr. Joe, Sean and Kori very intimately over the next year and I can't tell you how excited I am to work with them. We already have a goal in mind and a plan in place! I am so impressed with their professionalism but also the way that they maintain constant contact with you. I mean my emails are answered almost immediately! Not only that their enthusiasm is contagious. I am so happy with this.

The hardest part will be to track my food DAILY but I am already doing well for day one…Can't wait to keep you posted on my progress!

And yes some of these pictures may look ridiculous but I Was feeling giddy and the Yellow door made me happy.

This is my ridiculous picture of the day ;)

What I am Wearing
Dress: Banana Republic (bought in Miami)
Blazer: Zara (this season - I spent a bit more on this blazer bt I love the structure and its a classic piece I will have forever)
Shoes: The Bay Expressions (these are by far my favourite heels. Wish I had bought them in every colour)
Jewellery: Necklace - Coach
Rings - Coach
Bangles - Borrowed

Je t'aime mes amis…a bientot - Here's to blue beginnings and perfect peaking :)

Taste of the Danforth

2011-08-21T20:39:00.000-04:00

On August 6 and 7, I headed home to Tdot to be with my family and of course to take in the Taste of the Danforth. Its a great street festival celebrating Greek Town and all that it has to offer. Taste of the Danforth is a yearly festival held in Toronto, in the Greektown area along Danforth Avenue for a period of three days in August, spawned from the Taste of Chicago in Chicago, Illinois, United States. Started in 1994, it celebrates Greek food and culture every second weekend in August.

This street Festival is one of my favourites to attend - and I sort of don't have a choice - my parents have a store on the Danforth but I look forward to the mayhem each and every year!

Not to mention all the great treats and eats - I just looked at these :)

There was some Greek Yogurt available to try....

Fresh Corn on the Cob

Roasted Yams, Watermelon the size of your face...I kid you not....

But this is what I look forward to...the big Carrot....Its this amazing natural food market with organic treats, eats, and goodies. I walked out with two grocery bags full :)

Have you attended a street festival this summer?

Secret Garden

2011-08-19T06:00:00.002-04:00

TGIF friends.

The weekend is finally here! This week has been extremely hectic for me. Not only has there been a lot going on work wise, one of my Best Friends has moved away from the city : ( It's truly the end of an era, though I am so happy for her and her new adventures.

With all that in mind, and my big epiphany, I felt more grounded and calm knowing that I was going to be setting new goals for myself. As of Today I have gone back to strict clean eating…no more cheating (i.e. no more chocolate, no more cereal by the bowlfuls and no more over eating like I've never seen cherries before…) yes people I am going back to clean eating, upping the protein and removing the things that are making me feel like garbage…

This weekend is going to be all about trying new recipes and making mistakes in the kitchen…

Stay tuned for the ~~disasters miracles~~ amazing new eats.

What I am wearing:
Dress: Dynamite (Sale baby 14.99!!!)
Blazer: Dynamite (3 years and still looks brand new...)
Nails: OPI
Necklace:F21
Shoes: Chinese Laundry(Winners at least 6 years old)...These shoes are dying sadly.

What are you doing this weekend?

Seeing Red

2011-08-17T13:18:00.000-04:00

It's hump day (middle of the week), and well, I woke up feeling ready to take on the world.

You all know my woes with the scale but I decided to claim some of that power back…and what better way to do that then to wear red and feel ferocious. Ok I don’t feel ferocious but I do feel confident, and, a wise woman (aka my posing instructor aka one of the most amazing women I know aka I am honestly blessed to have her in my life) told me that confidence is sexy and with confidence, you attract more of the same people in your life. ISN'T SHE SMART!?

I mean why is it that I don’t feel like the confident woman I can portray in my pictures? I want to be her and mostly, I am working on changing the attitude within me. So no more woe is me…(please smack me if I do), but more Whoa that's me! :)

That was my epiphany/AHA moment.

note to self: REMOVE pink nail polish....lol

What I am wearing:

Dress: Max and Cleo

Shoes: DKNYC (I wear these like I have no other pair of heels but gosh they are so comfy)

Sweater: Jacob

Necklace: NYC Street Shopping

Lipstick: MAC RED

Have you had an AHA moment lately?

Post Competition Blues

2011-08-16T06:01:00.019-04:00

As most of you know, one month ago I competed in my first figure competition and had an amazing experience. I met other competitors from the blog world, and was able to get my body in the best shape I have been in EVER.

However, I am not experiencing what some competitors call the Post Competition Blues. For one, when you're used to living at the gym and nnowo suddenly have free time on your hands, it can be difficult to not want to let your body rest and recuperate.

Food has become a love hate relationship. I still eat like I am in competition mode for the most part but then see something i must eat and I have to be careful not to binge. For me, I eat cereal like I've never seen it before. I kid you not. My sister saw me mix about 3 cereals into my bowl because I didn't want to miss out on any of them...and well she thought I was absolutely off my rocker and for me...its scary! Watching my body become a bit soft again is hard. as is not being too critical.

But what's most disconcerting is the weight gain....it happened quickly for me. I am ten pounds heavier at the moment and while that may not seem like much, it shows on my frame. My skirts are a bit snug, and I gym shorts don't fit like they used to.

What's been helping me with the post Competition Blues is knowing I am not alone. I have been keeping up with other bloggers who have been just great resources! I have even had personal email to help me stay on point with grocery lists!

Chantelle recently did a guest post which I felt was taken straight from my inner depths and discusses my fears and worries about post competition.

Then there is Figure Girl World, another amazing woman who gets it! their stories with the post competition blues were mirrors of my own worries and slumps. But at the same time I just found it so INTUITIVE that this is what they are writing about when I am feeling this way.

Currently I am working on the love hate relationship I am having with my body. I love how its filling out but I do miss being in the "peak" phase

courtesy of Pinterest

You can read about a few different stories Here, Here and here.

If any of you have your personal stories you can share with me I would love to hear from you. What do you when you're feeling blue?

Blogger Profile - Head on Over to Petite Adventures!

2011-08-12T11:36:00.000-04:00

I recently had the most amazing opportunity to be interviewed by another blogger. Please head on over to Petite Adventures for today's post!

Special shout out to Petite Adventures for taking the time to get to know me better! :)

Groovy Baby...

2011-08-10T21:22:00.000-04:00

I've been feeling very inspired by the 70s early 80s era. Yes That 70s Show is over and Brady Bunch reruns have dried out on TV but recently I have been looking old family photos.

Flashback to my grandpa (I call him Papa) and Grandma (Maa) from the days when pictures still looked grainy and had that Old feel to them.

I love Maa's Outfit here. It really is my inspiration for today's Outfit

I personally think my Granny had one of the most versatile styles EVER! and I cannot wait to share more fabulous photos of her and papa.

Here's my version of her outfit...

What I am Wearing...

Shoes: Payless

Blouse: Jacob

Pants: Gift brought from friend in the UK

Necklace: The Bay (3 dollars baby!)

Sunglasses: Michael Kors

Purse: Coach

Who inspires you?

Art Deco & Pink Cadillacs

2011-08-09T15:31:00.000-04:00

Friends,

As promised here are some fabulous pictures of Miami. While there are only a few…they are the ones that made MIAMI an experience of a lifetime. I just have to mention that I bought a bad of almonds from the Airport...and well....AFTER i was on the plane, I noticed that they tasted stale..Not cool.

The view from my room however, was to die for...the beach just steps away!

I honestly can't remember feeling heat like I have in Miami….then again Dubai seems similar! The heat was just thick…that's the best way to describe the humidity and the scorching days in South Beach.

I have to say I loved it. Every minute of heat and warmth. With my huge water bottle by my side, I ventured to all of the touristy places in SoBe…I have to say I loved how the hotels were considered heritage buildings and almost every single one had an Art Deco feel. I visited Every hotel on the strip not because I am crazy but because a friend is getting married there in the Fall and we were looking for the perfect venue for her wedding and reception. I think we found them!

In addition to the Art Deco, you automatically feel transported back to the 80s. For example... This Pink Cadillac was a staple on Collins Avenue where I took many walks.

Food however was not so great. In fact I was a bit disappointed. I did manage to eat at a few Cuban restaurants but I wasn’t "wowed". I also had a hard time with portion sizes. For example. This Salad was the size of my HEAD. I kid you not. I could barely get through half…and I left the bread…minus a bite here or two.

I also fell in love with many many many pairs of shoes that were on sale...Cant wait to who you which ones I actually bought!

I wont bore you with too many pictures but I am so glad this is where I ended up post competition. I took many amazing walks, ran on the beach and enjoyed the heat.

Have you been to Miami? Any places you suggest going? I plan on taking a trip again!

Fall Forward

2011-08-05T23:53:00.000-04:00

This Morning I woke up Feeling Brand new and I jumped up. Feeling my highs, and my lows. In my soul, and my goals...Ok I'll stop singing Talib Kweli and get to the point of my post.

Seriously, This morning I woke up and felt like the air had shifted and well....it feels like FALL....

The mornings are crisper, the nights are cooler and its dark when I wake up...sigh. I guess all good things come to an end : (

I don't want think of fall, but it seems like everyone is talking about it - whether its in fashion, whether its going back to school, all the commercials are even talking about the fall line up!And don't get me wrong I love fall...I am a labour day baby but it seems....TOO SOON!

With my goal of competing under my belt, I am trying to get back into training without OVER doing it. You see, I lived at the gym. Morning and Night....I seem to have a lot of time on my hands. Right now, my workouts are pretty much reduced to two 30 minute cardio sessions a week and three weight training sessions. This is WEIRD.

I'm learning how to have a balance again and I don't know if I like it : ) On another note...I was surprised but a little sneak peak of the photo shoot I did the day before the competition. I was extremely lucky to have my makeup done by my talented friend and manager at COACH. I cant wait to show you more pictures when I get them.

How do you feel this morning? what are some of your goals for fall?

Setting the Record Straight

2011-08-03T10:22:00.000-04:00

Hey All,

I've had a bit of negativity directed towards the blog and while I am not going to point fingers or single anyone out, I just want to reiterate that sometimes when posting, I can be a bit quick to type. So things may be a bit misconstrued or misinterpreted. For one thing, I would not post a SINGLE picture or wear something that I didn't love or find promise in.

I apologise to anyone who may have felt I devalued the amazing pieces I am given to wear or things I have in my own wardrobe. I do not take anything I have for granted. For those of you know know me, you know I would NEVER say something INTENTIONALLY to hurt someone.

Second, I do borrow a lot of clothing from Auntie R and I have also borrowed from Auntie B and been given hand me downs from both of them. In addition to their generosity, I've been given clothes to borrow from my sis, my cousin and of course clothes swaps!

Since prepping for the competition, I have found that while I can still fit into some of my clothes MOST do not fit. I am so lucky that I have an extended family who are willing to share their wardrobes with me so I don't have to wear the same things everyday, nor break the bank in purchasing more clothes.

These pictures were taken a few weeks before the competition and Kat so graciously took these pictures.

What I am wearing (I am happy to report that all articles for once are my own :))

Skirt: Club Monaco

Shirt: Mango

Jewelry: Bracelets (Gift)

Necklace: Aldo

Shoes: DKNYC

What do you do when your upset? How do you cope? How do you let go?

South Beach Bum

2011-08-01T21:00:00.002-04:00

Hello all!

I've missed you all and when it was possible I tried to sneak on the internet when wifi was available. I am so happy to be back, i feel like I've missed many things in the world of blogging and my new friends. As Miami comes to a close, I am excited for some new opportunities that will be coming my way.

I don't want to say anything just yet but I have some interesting opportunities presenting themselves to me. I am really looking forward to pursuing them. Something that is completely out of my element. I also am not sure if I am allowed to say anything just Yet but I am so thrilled!

Miami was a much needed vaycay from everything. While away, I did try to go to the gym. But this is what I had to work with....

This was pitiful....

Not sure if you can see the rust....

On top of it, the gym was located outdoors. And I almost passed out from the thick humid air and heat. I did manage to get one run on the beach in. I huffed and puffed and every few minutes alternated between pushups and sit-ups. I definitely feel soft. Ready to get back to eating clean and in some sort of normal eating habits. That's the one thing i hate about traveling, the comforts of home I.e. My food, hair products and all the others all things are unavailable to me.

I do have to say I was pretty awful at taking pictures. It was too hot! And I felt lazy. But I do have some that I will share for sure!

Does walking for hours on end count as a bit of exercise? :) what do you do to get in a work out when on the road?

Black and Gold

2011-07-28T05:45:00.001-04:00

So This is another scheduled post and we will be back to regular programming shortly.

I miss you guys! If any of you remember this outfit was from the days I was having some tummy troubles with too much tilapia. Thought it was about time to actually show you what I was wearing!

This is when my feet shrank...now my feet look swollen....

What I am wearing:
Skirt: SmartSet
Top: Borrowed from Auntie R
Bangle: Gifted from Auntie R (F21)
Belt: BCBG
Shoes: DKNYC

To all my competition ladies, did you feel "weird" after competition. I swear my skin feels tight and I feel like I am retaining water....is that possible?

Versatile Blgoger Award

2011-07-25T09:40:00.025-04:00

As you know I am away for the week soaking up some sun in Miami and taking some time off to enjoy the summer.

Can't wait to tell you all about my trip but until then here is another post to keep you all in the loop. I must apologise in advance I wont be able to comment as I wont have access to internet on my phone. Roaming charges were astronomical.

about a week ago, I received the Versatile Blogger Award from Live Life In Style. Shasie is an amazing woman who has great personal style and a wonderful blog. I love how she is an everyday woman with a wardrobe to die for.

Shasie Thank you for passing on the love and I intend to do the same!

Questions

1. Name your favorite song: Window Seat - Eykah Badu (just went to her concert so maybe that's why its stuck : ))

2. Name your favorite dessert: Oh goodness. So difficult. I am a sucker for cheesecake, fruit, and a mean slice of carrot cake;)

4. What is your biggest Fear?: My biggest fear is not being true to myself, and sometimes letting fear take over. Hence doing the fitness competition to conquer a fear.

5. What is your best feature? I think its my smile :)

6. Guilty Pleasure: I have to choose one? I heart Harry Potter.

7. What is your favorite color? Blue but I love black - keeping it simple :)

I'm passing this award on to five of my favourite reads right now. Each one of these blogs offers something unique in the fashion world. I hope you'll show them some love! '

Fashion indie love affair indie.electronic.alternative

Baby Budget Blog

Chicca Style

Bright Smile

hope you lovely ladies will pay it forward. XOXO

Playing it up in Purple

2011-07-23T09:00:00.010-04:00

Friends

Just a reminder I am away for all of next week and this weekend. I have to apologise in advance for not responding to comments or keeping up with blogs. But I plan on enjoying my vacation in Miami to the fullest. Training will be involved but for the most part I will be a beach bum and I plan on getting my eat on. Though Since the competition I have put on 10 pounds! yep just like that! I am not eating a crazy amount but I think I jsut screwed with my metabolism and so now my body is learning how to find a happy medium.

I will keep you posted on my scale woes :S

on to the outfit. I am in love with this dress! I actually had this made. I took this from Auntie R's closet but it was a bit long and was not shaped top, which I believe was a gift from India or Dubai. i went to a alterations place and gave them my vision. and this is what they came up with. I LOVE LOVE the pattern, the colours just everything about this piece and it definitely needed to be worn.

What I am Wearing:
Dress: Kurti Top altered into a dress
Belt: J Crew
Shoes: Expressions (The Bay)
Bangles: My Grandma!
Flower: Mother Nature : )

What are your plans for the summer? any of you taking a trip?

Dark Chocolate Peanut Butter

2011-07-21T19:00:00.001-04:00

O. M. G.

So as you know I have been eating. All the things I have wanted to since the competition ended. One of my favourites is this high protein Peanut Butter with Dark Chocolate mixed in. IT IS LOVELY.

I have to say it was so good to eat right out of the jar Yummo!

One thing I have noticed post competition is my tummy is upset ALL THE TIME. I am eating clean for the most part but even cereal and almond milk are making it unhappy. Did any of you feel this way?

Also As an FYI, I am heading out for a week and a bit for a wedding and a trip to Miami so apologies in advance I won't be able to comment much or respond to comments. I promise once I am back though that I will reply! :)

I heart this PB do you have any yummy treats that you could share with me?

2 Competitions, 2 Suits, 1 Goal Accomplished ~Priceless

2011-07-19T12:21:00.001-04:00

I know all of you have been wanting to know how my day went for the competition. So far you know I have had some Tanning Issues, Followed by a great brunch. But what happened show day?

Well First I couldn’t sleep. Work up with thumb prints all over my chest because I was not told to sleep with socks on my hands! I looked a bit diseased but was able to get it touched up before I headed out on to the stage.

And of course, That's me, eating my rice cake smeared with PB and Jelly. Can I tell you it was the most wonderful thing I had ever eaten. I mean I haven't touched PB or Jam in a long time and the two together, well. HEAVEN! I am having a craving for them right now.

Once I had some energy, it was time to get into suit number one for SAF. I honestly felt good in the morning. I felt my body looked good and I was ready to rock it. This is a photo of me back stage just practicing my stage presence. I have to say though, I am not sure if SAF is for me. While I was hitting poses, I felt perhapsit was too "flirty" for me and I not about the physique but about throwing your booty around. And I can't say that that's my style.

IDFA however was more my style. I trully enjoyed just getting out there, hitting your front, side, back poses. I felt that it represented more the physique (particularly in the Figure category). However, one thing that took me by surprise was Aunt Flo. Yup she made an appearance so by the night show, I felt bloated, heavy and just tired. Word of advice, don't compete in two shoes in one day. I just was exhausted and depleted!

Although I didn't place (I have a feeling I came in last because I am still carrying a lot of fat comparatively to other women who competed) its ok. I feel I won in my books. Getting up on stage, doing something out of my comfort zone and letting a select few judge me on my body, well…I think I rocked it regardless!

Have you done something out of your comfort zone lately?

Brunch and Bling!

2011-07-18T11:37:00.000-04:00

Friends
I apologise for not posting for the last two days let's just say doing two competitions in one day was tiring! I didn't place but I am OK with that. I won something more important for myself - I completed a goal. I followed through! and.....I can't wait to compete again.

Yup you heard me…I have the itch! For me I really don't enjoy getting on stage, I am shy for the most part and getting on stage makes me do something vulnerable and also helps to prove to myself that I can do it.

I love the training aspect of it and more improtant I love the women who are part of the competitions. Everyone I met was so wonderfully sweet and supportive. Ready to share lipstick, Bikini Bite and words of encouragement. I can't think of anything better.

I will be posting pictures tomorrow but here are some pictures from the brunch and bling from yesterday.

Love you all and cannot thank you enough for all of the wonderful words of encouragement, support and friendship you all have shown me the past months.

I will still continue to post about my fitness journey, but will also do more fashion posts, food and recipes as well. I can't wait to see what I will do next.

What's your favourite treat? do you enjoy brunch?

Morning Of: Tan Tales

2011-07-16T06:04:00.000-04:00

Well Friends

The big day is here. COULD NOT SLEEP! eek! Went to bed at 11:30 PM and was up by 3:30 AM. I tossed around like for an hour and decided it was fruitless. Put on a pot of coffee (only having a small eensie weensie cup with my chicken - which after carb day is not so bad. I highly recommend marinating the chicken in lime juice and cilantro over night, pan searing and then putting in the oven. Its actually TASTY! Also made my DARK French Roast Coffee as strong as I could bear it. Stupid internal clock would not let me sleep in but mostly i have to blame the nerves!

I mentioned to you all that yesterday I went for my Spray tan. Pam was fabulous! so wonderful and kind and sweet and told me which way to turn and hold out my leg or arm because clearly I was an amateur at this and she smelled me from a mile away (I smelled like Jan Tana skin prep so not so bad....but no deoderant here on out!)

We did the tan up to my neck....im not sure if you can see the difference, but my own skin colour now pales in comparison and I look very yellow in face (pardon the puns haha)

So all is well with the tan, minus me trying to find a pair of loose cotton pants and shirt....Ill be going ot the show in my PJs because I threw out most of my oversized sweats many moons ago...I never really wear sweats. not even to the gym. I wear leggings! I went to bed for a mere few hours and woke up to this.

I SLEPT WITH MY HANDS ON CHEST!
A) I didn't know I did that.
B) I look like i have a disease
C) Soooo lucky that Pam will be at the show to do the touch ups!

Not too much came off on the sheets so all is well with the world. I am leaving those on the bed for tonight...just in case I have more Jan Tana decided to come off.

Though have to say I am already looking forward to a hot shower : )

Will try to post more if I can!

PS my friend BikiniorBust mentioned me on her blog today. Check it out and other Competitors HERE! Donloree is a force! you all need to be reading her blog YESTERDAY :)

xoxo

12 Hours to GO!

2011-07-15T19:54:00.000-04:00

Oh. Dear. God.

Its here! Its finally here! Its about 7:45 PM and in about an hour, I am heading to get my spray tan (Airbrushed with a professional) with the Jan Tana High Definition spray.

Turns out, this was one of the most economical ways of applying the tan so I am SUPER excited. but...no sleeping on my white sheets : ) I'll also be sleeping on a towel and peeing in a cup. Oh yes...you heard me a Cup... :P

Today went by so fast! I had my last round of cardio, groceries, photoshoot and cleaned the apartment. I'm hosting a celebratory brunch Sunday (its also a Stella and Dot Jewelry Party!)

I had some mini cupcakes ordered for the special day. They arrived this afternoon and are sitting in my fridge. Want to know something though? I'm not even in the least bit enticed! I thought it would have been hard to resist because I have been craving cake, but meh? lol Don't get me wrong, the photographer tried them and he said they were delish. Especially the chocolaty ones. But I am just looking forward to my bowl of cereal and cherries tomorrow evening.

In other events of the day:
My Suitcase is packed - for the most part (no shoulder bag because it could ruin the tan). I have my suits, heels, bands, makeup, wipes and cups packed. I also have Listerine and Vaseline in there. Food will be packed in the morning.

Tomorrow on the MENU:
chicken (Marinated in lime juice and cilantro and baked so it doesn't have to taste like cardboard and one cup of tea for breakfast
Rest of the Day
rice cakes
almond butter
jam
dates
banana
dark chocolate.
Sips of water as needed

Doesn't seem half bad : )

I am soooooo nervous but excited at the same time. Really looking forward to just enjoying the moment. My heart though will have to calm down because I am just a ball of nerves.

Thank you again to everyone who has been here for the journey. I honestly could not have done it without your support. I wont disappoint you guys : )

2 More Sleeps

2011-07-14T20:20:00.000-04:00

Friends,

I want to apologise for not responding to comments, and not posting yesterday. My plan was to come home after my fake bake ( i.e. Spray Tan) and get caught up on all the wonderful comments, and blog reading. Instead, I came come home and felt like death. O. M. G. I thought I was going to pass out, had a super bad headache and was really nauseous. It took all my strength to keep my eyes open and from keeping the room from spinning.

I hadn't changed my diet, other then remove salt. So what could it have been? Turns out it was the spray tan! It was my first time ever being in the Versa Spa booth and I wasn't told anything about HOLDING MY BREATH when facing the nozzle. Apparently, inhaling, could cause you to feel like death that night and the NEXT MORNING TOO!

It's been another go, go, go day. I honestly have no idea how its already 8:13PM. I have been up since from 4:40 AM. I had my last touch up session with the trainer, we went over my band warm up for the stage, cardio, got ready for my first photo-shoot (oh yeah baby!) I will be posting a few of the pics on the blog when I get them. All this was followed by posing (my last session with the fabulous A I love her!), some shopping (I had a Groupon coupon for Old Navy where I scored a two sweaters and a pair of flats sweet!) and, I picked up 5 tanktops for 20 dollars AH-MAZING!

I also cleaned my kitchen and while I was doing dishes, I realised more of my "dishes" recently have been from tupperware...See the stack below. It's time to enjoy my food on plates more often!

Les Tupperware...At least I eat with real cutlery!

A big thank you to every single one of you who has followed me on this journey~! Just 2 more sleeps eek!

Carrot Cake Fever and Post Comp Treats

2011-07-12T21:34:00.000-04:00

Day 4 is coming to a close and want to know whats on my mind?

1) Brunch

2) CARROT CAKE

Sunday Morning following the Competition, I am hosting along with my friend a Stella and Dot Jewellery Party along with Brunch. My Favourite Food Group of all time. If I could eat breakfast food for every meal I would gladly accept. Give me Oats, Eggs, and a bowl of Fruit and I will be your best pal EVER. : )

Other than brunch ALL I WANT is Carrot Cake. Seriously? YES. All different types of Carrot Cake. Carrot Cake in the form of cupcakes with cream cheese icing.

Carrot Cake like the 6 layer carrot Cake that was made lat night on Kitchen Nightmares. OMG can I JUST shove my face in it?

This is not the actual cake I couldn't find it online but it was worth of a blog post :P

Carrot Cake from Murray St.

They have fabulous Charcuterie too!

Carrot Cake with Walnuts

Carrot Cake Bites....

Carrot Cupcakes and Muffins

I think you get the point.... clearly I have been torturing myself with Carrot Infused goodies via Food blogs. Please note these pictures do not belong to me and I used Google images to get them.

Other than my fixation with carrot cake, I really just want a huge bowl of oatmeal (with almond Milk and nuts) and fruit! Those are the things I trully want to eat : )

So weird how it all changes, No longer to do I want that burger or pizza. Its really simple clean eats :) and maybe Nutella : )

What do you crave? what are your favourite treats to eat?

One Lovely Blog Award

2011-07-11T14:13:00.000-04:00

I've been so lucky, and honoured to have wonderful people give me blogger awards.

I received a great award from Tereza Anton of Drastic Plastic - if you click on the image it will take you to the page.

How Amazing is that? Thank you Tereza Anton! it was so unexpected but lovely.

So now comes the interesting bit: 7 Things you didn't know about me.
As you all know I will be participating in my first Fitness Competition come this Saturday so a lot of my "favourite things will be around food, fears, and of course fashion :)
1. I am deathly afraid of Spiders!
2. My favourite fruit in the entire world are cherries! I could eat them forever. And plan on having enough to put me in a sugar induced coma come Saturday night!

3. Nutella is the greatest creation on earth - a Chocolate Hazelnut spread? Yes Please!

4. I am in love with IsoBar Protein Bars. They are absolutely positively Ah-mazing. If you haven't tried it you MUST. I am not a fan of protein bars in the least BUT these bars? I am DREAMING o0f consuming them. I think I prefer the vanilla over the chocolate but then again I don’t know! They are both so good and not too bad for carb content either. It's an organic bar as well which I love, no artificial preservatives, low in sodium and DEE-licious!

I am smitten by these bars sooo yummy!

5. I'm left handed. Yup friends, they say that left handed people are very creative.
6. I covet many wonderful items from Zara and Club Monaco but admire from afar.
7. I won a pair of shoes in a Giveaway! ( I will be telling you more about this in a following post!)

The 7 blogs I am choosing to give this award to range in fashion, fitness and life. They have been my rocks, daily read and forms of inspiration over the past months. so lovlies- This goes out to you!

Glam Kitten's Litter Box

La Sophia

Twenty's Girl

You all have been so wonderful! and believe me it was hard to choose. There are so many other daily inspirations out there. you are not forgotten!

What you have to do to accept: thank me {YES please!}, do a post about your new award, say 7 things about you, do the "favorite list" thing, give the award to 7 blogs to pay it forward!

*Please note the pictures on today's post are not my own and have been taken from stock photos on Google Images.

One Week Out

2011-07-09T23:38:00.001-04:00

As a promise to myself,

I am continuing with my daily posts until show time. Today was crazy. mad amount of cardio, followed by work, followed by Erykah Badu Concert equals Nini getting home at 11 PM tired and exhausted. And Hungry.

I've eaten all my meals for today....so cant sneak anything...but I swear, I almost went down to the car where I've stored all my goodies in the trunk because I am SO tempted. HOWEVER, common sense prevailed, and as my tummy rumbles, I am just going to write this post and go to bed : ).

This is what's in the fridge now...yes a COSTCO size jar of pickles are in the back.

On another note, while I was at the concert I received a text from my nutritionist. It totally got me PEEVED! We had discussed me meeting him on Monday morning bright and early for a final follow up. He texted me half way through Erykah's set to ask when I could meet!? Excuse me? How could he have forgotten that we had our scheduled appointment already (he's done this before and it makes it seem like I am not important)?

Anyways we rescheduled for Wednesday. I know its probably my emotions that are running high, but I started crying at the concert. And, I still have a lump in my throat. I just feel down right mad/upset/frustrated!

Reminding myself though, its only one more week. One more week.... Serenity now....

What do you do to cope when you're upset?

I feel like Chicken Tonight

2011-07-08T21:44:00.000-04:00

Yeah Chicken tonight :)

Ok does anyone remember that commercial? Have I just dated myself? As I told you all before I am allowed to have a few meals of chicken so I decided to mix up a different options.

With day 8 coming to a close - Tomorrow marks 7 days if not 6! till stage day!

I've been feeling pretty exhausted these days...taking it as best I can - My knees are starting to hurt from all the cardio and I am not recovering as fast. Its a good thing that I've taken three days off work next week to be able to prepare and sleep! On top of exhaustion, its been really difficult to get through my meals. For some reason I am just not hungry…I mean I am (hungry), believe me but I think it may just be boredom of looking at tilapia.

Anyways, Last night I prepped three different types of chicken that I will be Pan "frying" or baking in the oven

One: "Chicken Wings" I saw this recipe HERE - Becca is a fellow figure competitor, so thought I might as well try this out! I marinated my chicken in The red hot overnight and then I added some Club House Tex Mex Seasoning and made in a non-stick pan.

Two: Harissa and Tagine inspired chicken with cilantro (I love me some spicy food so this will be baked and stuffed with Zucchini yummmy!)

Three: dash of olive oil, paprika, salt, green onion - I am going to stuff this with some broccoli florets - rappini and mushroom that I had going on the stove

What's your favourite way of cooking chicken? I am always looking for recipes!

Bread and Peanut Butter

2011-07-07T23:08:00.000-04:00

It's about 11 PM here and I have now been up since 4:45 AM, worked 12 hours, had a leg workout in the AM and a cardio workout after 915. I've also managed to roast some asparagus, broccoli and make my eggs for tomorrow because its going to be a mission to get out of bed tomorrow for arms and hamstrings haha!

But I promised myself I would blog every day for the next 9 days for my sanity and to get out some of my last minute emotions and frustrations.

First! a happy moment! look what I found? high protein bread people! Bread. O. M. G. how amazing is this? Apparently they make BAGELS too! so Naturally, I bought a loaf, gave a few slices to my trainer, and the rest is sitting in my freezer for post competition.

Second: uhmm HELLO HEAVEN.

yes friends that's DARK CHOCOLATE peanut butter with a bit of whey infused in so two tbsp is 10 G of Protein! Alas it too has to wait because of the sugar content in it but can I get a YUM?

Other then That Today has been pretty difficult. Tomorrow is supposed to be carb load up day, but I am holding off until Sunday after that its fish and chicken until Thursday and Friday will be another carb up day...

SOOOOO close but right now it feels so distant. I wish I had one more week to train, but at the same time I want it to be here to morrow so I can just eat my shredded Wheat with Almond milk already Geez lol.

Ok its time for me to finish the Rest of my packing for tomorrow. HOpe you all had a great Thursday! TGIF tommr baby!

Shoe Shrinkage and Grocery Growth

2011-07-06T22:31:00.000-04:00

Today I was asked a question posed by on of my readers and though it would be good to share! Bright Smile asked me whether my grocery bill got more expensive since Prep training? The Short Answer: Yes....The long answer....read on my friends!

While my feet have been shrinking, my grocery bill has been increasing.

I feel an bit like Cinderella because I have lost my shoe walking on a few occasions now. Its like that will pretty much all of my shoes, flats, sandals, heels…Flip flops or the only thing staying in place right now. So I have resorted to stuff the front of my shoe because I refuse to spend any more money right now. I purchased all this stuff for tanning and its burned more than a hole in my pocket ….so tissue it is. And I finally have Petite Feet! Not small enough to ~~steal~~ borrow from Auntie R…She's a 5.5 and I'm now a 7...

can you see the gap at my heel?

Back to my Groceries: It's not necessarily because of all the fish and chicken and other forms of protein (though it does add up), its also because I am adding other things into my diet that I never had before and that requires going to specialty food stores, like Organic foods. I have invested in a good coconut oil because I cook with it for the most part and I LOVE the taste. Did you know that you can cook with coconut oil at high heat temperatures but not so much with olive oil?

At the same time, I am incorporating things like Omega Oil, Flax, chia seeds, Salba, and other forms of flour (for baking later) that cost a pretty penny. At the same time, I have invested in a lot of seasoning. Club house has been one of my favourites to work with but I have also tried other great additions - like Harissa. In addition to that, egg whites, Greek yogurt, natural peanut butter, gluten free breads and cereals are more expensive than your average box of cereal so, my I may feel a bit of a hole burning through my pocket, I feel its worth it. I feel better with what I am eating and I know I will be eating this way post competition too for the most part. Costco has been a great life saver. I find buying in bulk has helped to reduce a lot of the costs. They have a great Organic Quinoa available and when I was drinking almond milk, I could buy it by the case.

Finally, I have pretty much stopped eating out, do not spend money on alcohol and all other disposable income has gone to things like my competition suits, tanning supplies etc. so in a sense it does even out!

I still have to answer one posed to me which I promise I will but I thought it would be best to answer when I back on a "normal" diet in 10 days If you have any other questions let me know!

TMI, Tight Belts, and Tilapia!

2011-07-05T23:31:00.000-04:00

So Day 11 is officially (well almost) over.

10 to go! Eek!

First up I wanted to talk about my love affair, or not so much with my BFF tilapia. Yesterday at work, I wore a pretty high waisted skirt with a pretty tight belt (Ok I am taking the long way around to get to the point - bear with me).

This belt was tight. Most of the time a good thing. Yesterday...not so much.

And I ate fish. I ate fish and I ate asparagus and then after all of that, I went home, changed in to work attire two. By the time I got to my destination I cold feel a little rumbling. Now perhaps my tilapia and asparagus were "stuck" in between my ribcage and belt because for a better part of the day, because that night, I was, well...having a bit of tummy troubles...TMI (too much information)? I do apologise.

During this nightmare, I was having one of those moments where most people would say "oh I am never drinking again" I was having an " Oh I never want to see, smell or come near tilapia again...EVER" moment. I mean thinking about it right now is sort of making me gag (I'm lucky today is carb day - so no fish).

After having a bit of a meltdown with the nutrition guy, I was able to convince him that for my sanity and stomach I MUST have chicken again! FOLKS this is epic for me. I have been living off white fish for a better part of 3 weeks and honestly at this point sometimes too much of one thing can be a good thing turned EVIL (i.e. my love-hate relationship with tilapia). So for 8 of my 10 days left, I get 1-2 meals of chicken instead of tilapia - Hallelujah! Cannot wait for the next 10 days to be over so I can say BUH BYE to tilapia for the better part of the summer FOR SURE.

Its way past my bedtime so I will continue to post of the next 10 days - the last LEG! :)

Canada Post - Delivering a Bucketful of Gratitude

2011-07-03T15:29:00.001-04:00

If there's one thing I would like to say to all of you faithful readers out there is THANK YOU! Thank you for your faith in my abilities for keeping me on point and on track in this last leg of journey #1 as a figure competitor.

I am so lucky, to have readers like you. I am less than two weeks from show date and I WILL get on the stage. Not going to lie, I am freaking out slightly, but so happy to have all of your support behind me. Though I may not be at the level of some of the other fabulous women there, I will be the best version of myself to date, and that's something I HAVE to be proud of and AM proud of.

Two weeks today, I will be celebrating my victory with a brunch! Yup! If you ask me what my favourite food group is, its brunch. The next 13 days will be on point until I can enjoy some fabulous french toast, eggs (with yolk!) fruit (I plan on being in a fruit coma - bring on the cherries, peaches, watermelon and grapes), oatmeal made with milk (mmmm delish), cupcakes, a celebratory mimosa and amazing group of friends to share it all with.

Can't wait to toast with all of you as well, my fellow online friends...Sending lots of love and positive energy back to you as you have done for me.

And....onto the outfit....Another Dress borrowed from Aunty R....Here is our little deal. I take her clothes, get them altered, wear a few times and give back. For me its like having a wardrobe on consignment. and it keeps things in BOTH of our closets rotating (though I have to say I get a much better bargain than she does ;P)

What I am Wearing
Dress: Borrowed from Aunty R (Bought at the Bay on Sale and it sat in her closet for a good 2 years because it was too big!)
Sweater: Tristan and America (mine ;) at least 5 years old)
Belt: J Crew
Shoes: BCBG Girls (I wear these a lot, you can see them here, and here)
Necklace: Aldo worn here

Feeling Green

2011-06-30T22:49:00.000-04:00

Ok People

Home stretch....HOME STRETCH?! ALREADY?! Had my progress pictures in the SUIT and I have to say I was happy. I like the way I looked from the front and side (as my nutritionist concurred) but he also mentioned to me that the back/butt area didn't look so hot....

So, now what? Do I still go ahead and compete? I WANT TO I really do... Even though technically I know I wont look as great at the other women? What do I do? I know I still have 2 weeks, but will that be enough? I am feeling a bit sick - to my stomach that is. :S Maybe a bit GREEN to be exact! I am going to give the last leg my all. Closer to competition date I will make my decision...

Going with the green theme, a while back I decided to make Kale chips. In theory a great idea. In reality - well t o me it tasted like dirt. And yes I did wash the kale thoroughly and I seasoned as well I could (lemon salt and pepper and paprika)....They looked great, but tasted awful. Any tips from my fellow Kale Chip makers?

That's my Sea salt you see on the cookie sheet.....

Going with my Green Theme, Time for my Outfit....Wore this a few weeks back - I haven't taken pictures recently but Let me know what you think!

What I am Wearing
Jewellry - Coach
Dress - borrowed (Auntie R)
Shoes - DYNY Flats (outlet shopping)
Sunglasses - Michael Kors

Lady in Red

2011-06-28T21:23:00.001-04:00

Fitness Prep has taught me a lot about myself. For one, I alone hold the key to success in whatever I do - Whether it's training, my job, life, family etc.

Learning how to control yourself, your thoughts emotions, and outlook are factors. I have learned that I HAVE CONTROL. That I can say no. That its ok to say no and still be polite.

I am constantly looking for the silver lining, to help me get through. I find that usually around 2 PM though I hit a lull....its the ebbs and flows of hormones, eating only white fish and knowing that the next two to three meals will be more of the same ;)

In my last post I wrote 4 weeks, but I meant to say 3 weeks (I have since corrected that error). As of today I am 18 days away...wow! Does that even seem possible?

So today my inspiration is THE SUIT. This is the suit I will be wearing for the SAF Competition - the AM show. I am so happy with the colour! Just what I needed to get through the rest of the day to stay on track, and eat the fish!

And to top things off a bit more, Thought I would post an outfit I wore to work on one of our warmer days :) Notice the theme?

What I am Wearing

Dress: FCUK

Shoes: BGBG Girls

Necklace: Aldo

Belt: Costa Blanca

What inspires you? How do you get through your "moment(s)" of weakness?

Khakis, Cream and Green

2011-06-25T20:47:00.002-04:00

Cupcakes (any idea whats on the brain right now ;)),

I am literally 3 weeks from competition day! So excited! I thought that today I would just post a work out fit. I had a fabulous day. I worked, picked up my car (its broken still but they didn't charge me for looking whoo!), went to Wal-Mart, Grocery shopping and cooked!

I have to say that its been an all round productive day. I also want to thank EVERYONE who has been commenting on the blog and providing me with the encouragement I need to continue through the home stretch.

LOVE YOU ALL!

Background on the picture. It was chilly. But Kat took these photos of me in G-town, and made it as quick as possible haha.

What I am Wearing:
Skirt: Hand me Down from Auntie R (its a good 25 years old!)
Blouse: RW and Co. Auntie R was feeling generous so I have borrowed indefinitely... :)
Bangles: Given to me by the woman who had the most style and grace (my Grandma!)
Shoes: DKNYC (I bought these shoes in an outlet in NYC and they were 1/3 of what I paid for my black ones in Toronto grrr.)

I hope you are all enjoying your Saturday as much as I am...eating my egg whites, spinach and peas

yummy!

Florals, Friends and Finding the Balance

2011-06-22T19:20:00.000-04:00

Recently I have come to realise that participating in this fitness competition has and is raising a lot of eyebrows for many people. And many people have questioned my reasons for doing this and the misconceptions that have followed with it.

Please let me assure you that this has NOT been for weight loss, but to work towards a bigger goal of testing myself - my mental and physical capabilities and to challenge myself to something I have thought was unattainable. Just like any sport, athletes must train for months at a time, have strict regimens, and eat certain foods. Of course there is an "off season". But the next 3 and half weeks are critical for me. This is the last leg of the contest prep.

I have been EVER SO LUCKY to have both silent and vocal cheerleaders in my corner. My true friends and family have upped the ante so to speak and have rallied against me with the last amount of strength I need to see this through. You all have been so wonderful. The constant emails, phone calls, messages and tweets have left me speechless from the support I CANNOT THANK YOU ENOUGH. And please note I will need it now more than ever :P

As for Foes...I have come to battle my own inhibitions. I have learned to silence the negative voice in my head and look ONLY at the positives. The past 8 months have not been about a "Bikini", but about achieving something bigger.

I learned that its about MOTIVATION. And an inner strength to get to that ideal condition - for most, its not about being a figure competitor but maybe something else, maybe to be a ballerina, or a hockey player, or even Olympic athlete. Its 90% ATTITUDE.

I thought it was time to also share some pictures from the Angie's Fashion Show I attended almost a month ago now!

What I am Wearing:

Floral Dress: Frou Frou (designer - local)

Shoes: Nine West (these KILLED me by the end of the night)

Jewelry: Bracelet (bought in India on my Travels)

Belt: BCBG

You Say Goodbye and I Say Hello

2011-06-17T14:27:00.004-04:00

I am my own worst enemy. Yes. There. I said it!

And all of you who are nodding your head saying "I told you so" well….I'm finally admitting it : )

Many new friends have been hitting it right on the money when it comes to my feelings, my personal inner voice and I have decided that if was finally time to let go. Let go of the negativity with my attitude towards the competition, towards my diet and towards the negative energies I have let stay in my life for far too long.

I'm taking myself back and channelling all that time spent on negativity towards positivity (ok yes I sound like a bad magnet but bear with me : ) ) I am shedding that negativity, clearing out closets, dumping things that make me feel bad. Whether its clothes, food, emails, texts, thoughts, people. Out the window you go (some mentally and others literally)!

This past week has been a week of learning life lessons. I refuse to let myself get in the way of realising my potential and my goals. I am going to kill the next 29 days with this crazy ass diet. I am going to kill my workouts no matter how tired I am feeling and more importantly I am going to focus on the positives of where I am rather than the negatives.

I 100% believe in visualising and I can see myself rocking that stage, kicking my fears aside and letting the best possible me shine.

#1. I am doing something that makes me happy! I love training and I love pushing myself to a goal I once though was unattainable.
#2. I AM WORTH IT. Though there have been some obstacles along the way, I have found a great community of friends and family who are there to support me and help me realise my potential how wonderful is that?
#3. I am not letting fear get the best of me. Fear of the competition itself, fear of being on stage, fear of post competition weight gain NONE OF IT. I am going to work at one goal at a time and come post competition, I am going to work hard at looking at food in a positive way and not binge eat. Learn to enjoy food and work with a coach who understands.

SO in closing I am saying goodbye to the old me and all that kept her down and saying hello to the new Nini who has so much potential and is not going to let anything get in her way.

Aloha.

Pearly Whites

2011-06-16T05:14:00.001-04:00

Friends

As you know I really don't wear pants because I find them constricting and have a hard time finding something that fits my butt and waist without alterations

well have now fear JEGGINGS are here. I love my jeggings. Leggings and jeans in on. They are snug comfy and have a little "give :)

And I am wearing this and posting this for my friend at Coco and Vera :)

Yes that's a phone booth....

I do my own nails!

Jeggings: Seven Jeans

Blazer: Dynamite

Pearly Necklace: Aldo

Bracelets: Aldo

Shoes: Nine West

31 Days...

2011-06-15T10:14:00.000-04:00

Ok Friends.

The next 31 days are going to be challenging so please bear with me as my posts are going to become a bit more Contest Prep related. I will throw in outfit posts where possible but I feel its important to document and discuss some of the things that I have been battling this week. I want to go through this process again so it will be important for me to look back on.

1. Blogs.
I have been reading a lot of blogs. Many of people who are going through or have gone through contest prep and it must be my luck or something, but I find every one so chipper and happy (or maybe I am just in a pessimistic mood?). Where are the ups and downs people? Were there none? I have become this constant pendulum of emotions. One minute I am happy as a Duck swimming in her pond, and the next I am a blubbering idiot. Am I just going through these emotions on my own? Did any of you who have done competitions feel this way?

2. Food
I have been battling myself with food. I am 99.9% on track but I wonder if the condiments are making me keep the pounds on. I have been eating salsa with my meals, maybe a pickle, mustard, hot sauce and gum. All staples and I think I would go mental if I started removing all of these things from my diet and I already feel VERY restricted in my meal choices. The Food one of the most important aspects of training should be fun. I am NOT enjoying it.

3. Progress pictures.
My Progress Pictures were taken this week. I wasn’t impressed. I feel like there wasn’t a significant improvement this week if any at all. I feel like Bridget Jones. Remember the part where she rewinds and fast forwards her butt coming up and down the fire hydrant? I keep flipping back and forth from picture to picture lol (flip, flip, flip, flip, flip).

4. Suit
I got my posing suits yesterday! I am so happy with how they turned out. But I feel like I have MAJOR work ahead of me to be ready to showcase myself in those itty-bitty suits….it really emphasized my flaws…hmmm.

5. Loving Contest Prep.
As much as I complain about it, or feel down, or sometimes worry about not being ready, NOT ONCE have I felt like this wasn’t something I WANT to do. I am Hooked people. I love training. I love that I have found something that makes me happy. I am not athletic. I don't play sports. But I love lifting weights, being in the gym and looking GOOD. I am proud of what I have accomplished so far. In fact I haven't been happier with myself. This is a challenge - mind, body and soul and at times is trying, but I'm smitten.

: )

XOXO

Hair Horror

2011-06-12T06:01:00.000-04:00

Thursday night I decided to get my hair cut because my layers had grown out and my bangs were non existent. I love my hair. One thing that some of you know is that my hair takes FOREVER to grow and I finally had it at a length where I wanted it.

Well Mr. Hair Dresser for some reason decided NOT listen to what I wanted (and he was my regular guy!) and went scissor happy. He gave me really weird layers which makes me feel like I have somewhat of a mullet and my bangs? Well lets not go there. I came home, cried and ate a ton of green beans (would have preferred chocolate mind you). and Mr. Hair Dresser has been CUT. I am not going to let you see the horror either.

Next week Saturday I will show you what I am going to do with it, because at this point I just put it up in a pony tail....34 Days out from competition and now I have another expense to deal with. NOT impressed.

I am also going through another lull. I feel my body has plateaued this week. I see NO changes and it's freaking me out. Just thought I would try and take my mind off things. So....OUTFIT time...lol.

Back in the day when I ACTUALLY had bangs...and glasses. Sigh.

The Locks WERE getting long....Now? grrr...

Part-time job at Coach has its benefits.

What I am Wearing

Top: Zara

Jewelry: Coach (Bracelet and Rings)

Boots: Nine West

Full Skirts and Florals and Fifties

2011-06-10T05:00:00.003-04:00

Lately I have been inspired by vintage looks, classic looks, full skirts and of course florals. Since today is a good day (I am all carbed up) I thought it would be time I had an outfit post. My friend Kat (she also gave me my first blog award! What an amazing week this has been : )) so graciously took these photos of me.

I love skirts, and dresses and rarely ever wear pants (unless you consider yoga pants at the gym) . I know most people find skirts and dresses annoying, but personally, I find them free-ing, flowy and comfortable.

I am going to keep it short today and let the pictures speak for themselves, but the skirt I am wearing if my first ever online purchase from ModCloth. Absolutely love it and cant wait to remix it over and over again.

What I am wearing:
Skirt: ModCloth Top: Old Navy (Last Year)
Belt: Rudsak
Shoes: Expressions (The Bay)
Lipstick: MAC (Cyndi Lauper's Colour)

Not So Shabby

2011-06-09T05:14:00.020-04:00

Warning: This is a long one ;)

One of my Favourite Get up and GO Songs right now is by Jazmine Sullivan - Dream Big

I have always been a go-getter, but in the silent way, like I am going to get my degree, or I am going to travel or I am going to get my Masters and publish even if it kills me. Yes life goals of education etc are important but in that pursuit, I put aside some of my passions. Painting, writing, being creative and dreaming.

I let other people dream big and watched as they got to where they wanted to go and be who they wanted to be but somehow my dreams were not being realised and then I decided to make one of those BIG DREAMS a reality. I was going to compete in my first ever fitness competition. One thing you have to know about me is if I make up my mind to do something there is NO turning back. And yes that can lead to stubborn moments but almost always its been positive.

And while this Dream of mine has made me more focused and determined (I have never wanted something so bad in my entire life), I have learned to let go of stressors who are not willing to be there with me and to help me to achieve my goals. I had a hard time letting go and believe me - my closest girlfriends were there to console me with tissues, ice cream and bad movies. I loved every second of having them there.

When I was left alone though, I realised I needed to do SOMETHING, and make a change for the better.

I began blogging. I set out on this journey and I told myself I would make this important that it would be a GOOD thing and it has ALL OF IT.
I am dreaming big, not only in fitness but in myself. Being invited to events, fashion shows and NOW...my first ever Affiliate!

SHABBY APPLE recently contacted me to become apart of their affiliate program and I just could NOT say no. I Love their clothing, their style, and their prices. SO if you have time take a look at some of their more classic retro, vintagey looks, or even some of the gear to rock to the gym!

Ending off with some of Jazmine's Lyrics from Dream Big
There's nothin' here for me so I gotta move fast
And I'm gettin' on the road and will never look back
I gotta dream big
(Dream big)
'Cause when it happen
It's gon' happen real quick
I gotta move fast
'Cause when it happen
I can't let it go past
(Only get one chance)

I hope Today's post has given you the courage and push YOU need to get to your goals. And things are not looking so shabby, not so shabby at all.

Ottawa Beauty Blog

2011-06-08T05:00:00.001-04:00

As many of you know, there are fabulous and talented photographers in Here is a bit more on the Ottawa Beauty Blog and Boudoir style Photography.

For more information Make sure you check out the Ottawa Beauty Blog for more information, pictures and details!

1. Please tell us al little bit about how you got into photography?

Photography started early for me. Most of my family including my father, brother, sister, and a few cousins were all avid amateur photographers so I was constantly exposed to mountains of photos and the act of taking them. By the time I was 8 I was taking my own and collected cameras from then on. While I worked in government and private industry my passion for the craft grew to the point where I needed to work on it full time. I started slowly and worked my way up to the point where I now have a full time studio.

2. What makes you stand out and above the rest from other boudoir photographers?

I'll try to keep this neutral and avoid phrases like "above". Boudoir photography has a huge variety of style and influence from other areas of photography. The styles that dominate in boudoir are the 70s-80s style with lots of red silk and lace and mottled back drops, to fashion and editorial styles that are much more slick and modern. My style leans towards the latter but with a heavy dose of personality and life. I'm not a fan of lifeless posses where the subject could be replaced by a mannequin so I like to pull out my subjects personalities and make the shoot unique to them. They can pick the location and under-lying style and I make sure it's about them. From what I have seen, most boudoir seems to be shot with a specific image in mind and the subject is just dropped into the scene. There are some great exceptions to this of course.

3. What is the most important thing to keep in mind when doing a boudoir photo shoot?

There are 2 sides to this question.

From a photographers point of view, the most important thing to keep in mind is your client's comfort. A photographer should never shoot a boudoir without being honest about their level of experience. By being open about everything, the photographer and client can enjoy the experience without trying to fake it. This is why if you don't have much experience, you should shoot with people you know. An experienced photographer will know that a client feels comfortable when you are confident, and completely yourself during the shoot. If you are not an experienced photographer to begin with, you can get caught up in the technical details and make the client uncomfortable if you get stressed out.

From a client's point of view, you should choose a photographer with plenty of experience and a good reputation. Never choose a photographer by price or gender since anyone can claim to be a photographer and the inexpensive ones are for sure inexperienced. It's a a good idea to meet with the photographer prior to the shoot to be sure that you get along very well since if you don't, you will not have a successful shoot. This also gives you a chance to discuss your expectations and ideas.

4. Do you do these types of shoots in peoples homes?

On occasion yes when it is suitable, otherwise in studio or in hotels. This is up to the client and what they are most comfortable with and what environment suits their requirements.

5. What have you learned from your clients in the past?

That's a great question. I have learned that there is a fantastic variety of people from infinite back grounds and cultures, shapes and sizes. They all have one thing in common and that is that they are all beautiful in one way or another. For some it's mostly physical, some mostly personality, but the majority are gorgeous when they are being themselves and feeling confident. I have also learned that no matter how beautiful someone is externally, they are no more confident or happy than anyone else. We all have our issues to contend with and are essentially the same. That's a valuable lesson for every day life since it affects how we all treat one another.

6. Why is having a male boudoir photographer better than a female boudoir photographer?

I would never try to label one as "better" than the other. This all boils down to personal preference and my personal favourites are male. These photographers all excel at bringing out the personality in a beautiful image. There are great photographers of either gender but males do tend to see things a little differently from women. You should not consider the gender when choosing a photographer but look at the style and the personality. Of course there are women who just prefer to shoot with women for their own personal reasons and that is their business.

39 days...Say What Now?!

2011-06-07T05:00:00.000-04:00

O. M. G.

OK people I am at the finish line. 39days away. And officially freaking! Super excited yes but gosh darn it some of these girls are Fit and Fab now! I need to get me some defined guns ASAP! I want my deltoid to come in but I am not seeing it. Is it time to get nervous? I don’t know. I really don’t know!

Yesterday was a relatively good day. Somehow I have managed to get in 4 L of water ( on top of the coffee and tea I drink.

I am nervous people. I am looking at pictures of other competitors 39days out and lets just say I feel like I have A LOT of work ahead of me. I'm am sticking to the Meal Plan like clockwork but am going through emotional cycles. One minute I am fine and the next stressing on the inside :S

I don’t know what to do to calm myself. I WANT THIS! But I worry my body wont be ready.

When in doubt do what other bloggers have done and that is talk about food and what they are thankful for!

1. I am Thankful/Grateful for Fabulous New Friends and Bloggers
If you're looking for inspiration, look no further than these women who have helped me get through my worst days.
Becca seems to go through the same emotional mood swings I do but always has such inspirational stories. I look forward to reading Everyday!
Donloree is ALWAYS available for great support. and This woman is about to write a book!
Stacy a figure Competitor posts her food and amazing recipes that I drool over and is such a source of inspiration.

and There are many more. Each day I am amazed my so many wonderful people out there.

2. I am Thankful/Grateful for my baby sister.
She is my number one supporter - why? Or how do you ask? Well she brought be dessert gum from the States and hand delivered them to me in Toronto this past weekend. I mean a sister who will travel all the way from Boston to give me some relief in my sugar cravingness is a life saver and NUMERO UNO in my books! Its all thanks to Becca who inspired me to pester my sister to bring them. I have to say the orange popsicle flavour and key lime is ok…Strawberry shortcake can be by passed.

3. I am Thankful for Carb days.
The last two weeks I have been having a REALLY REALLY tough time eating my carbs. I feel like garbage literally on those days. But I have found a way to help satisfy my sweet tooth craving and keep me from going over the edge. I made some sweet potato chips in the oven and I gobbled them up so yummy and delicious and really worth all the thin chopping. On half I put cinnamon and half I put paprika and chilli powder. Watched them bake and then tossed them together when they were crispy…It was delightful. Do any of you however, have tips on how to slice these to a thin point to make them crispy? As much as I loved them, my hands were getting numb from the thin slice-age lol.

Yep! I made those!

4. Hamburger Salad days (That's Today!).
Clearly this post is now all about food. So I might as well continue with it. I recently discovered that I can make hamburger salads on my meat day. I have to say this is probably one of my favourite meals of the week by far. A little bit of mustard, salsa and a half a pickle makes this meal a winner in my books!

5. Huevos Ranchos.
In Ottawa we have this amazing breakfast place called the Manx. They serve one of my favourite breakfast meals known as the huevos ranchos where they make your eggs, put in on a great tortilla with black beans, salsa, hot sauce and salad.

My version of this is
Egg whites a tbsp of SPICY salsa (reduced Sodium by PC - oh PC I love you!) a few jalapeños on top…can we say YUMMMMYYYY….

SO that’s what I am grateful for today. Sister, Gum, Carbs, Protein and new friends.

Camp? That's right!

2011-06-05T20:51:00.000-04:00

This weekend I attended the Serious About Fitness Camp (SAF Camp) which focused on competition prep, posing, tanning, hair, nails, makeup and all else in between.

I am so glad I went. It was such a great experience to see the other women who will be competing and also to meet some of the SAF girls who have one in the past and how they have made it to the top of their class.

Though it was a little intimidating to see such amazing women ready to compete, it was also humbling and great see that there were other women there who were serious about competing in a healthy way, but also those who had the same insecurities as I did!

All in all well worth the drive to and from Toronto.

We also walked away with some great goodies! Protein Power :)
My Brother was kind enough to take my goofy pictures before I went to bed at 1 am to wake up for 5 AM and drive back to Ottawa...Ugh that was so not pleasant but wouldn't have had it any other way.

Eye Spy

2011-06-02T05:19:00.001-04:00

Well Friends

After my meltdown the other day, Today I was on track! chicken and asparagus day whoo baby! I had a great day. No cheating the diet I ate this for every meal and then halfway through the afternoon my eye began to seriously, I MEAN SERIOUSLY bother me. There was something in it but I couldn't see it. I could definitely FEEL it.

I managed to get an appointment with the Optometrist 60 dollars later to find out that there WAS something in my eye...in fact two super thin hair like things in my which had to be removed....it was not cool. Wearing a patch now too for the rest of the night so I dont scratch my eye. and ensure that my eyes continue to heal from laser. The eye IS SUUUUUPPPERRR sore and sensitive but luckily it should be ok by tomorrow. Just have to stop straining my eyes and get off the computer.

THANK YOU ALL for your words of encouragement. I cannot wait to continue my good eating habits tommr...OK I lied I had a table spoon and a half of sugar free jam and three stale crackers that I saw in my cupboard...they weren't the tastiest but i really really needed a bit of carbs : (

I will be on track tomorrow for sure.

Anyways here are some pictures to keep everyone happy haha

Eeeww look at the bruise on my knee

Love the pockets in the dress.

What I am Wearing
Dress: Kensie Girl
Sweater:Jacob
Belt:Costa Blanca
Necklace and Bracelet Grandma
Shoes: Italy

Powerful in Purple

2011-06-01T05:45:00.001-04:00

So after my meltdown yesterday

I spoke to my posing coach and I was able to switch tilapia for Haddock (a fish with less omega 6 which was making me an emotional wreck)

I felt full satisfied and amazing.

So here's an outfit I wore a while back when I still had glasses. I sort of miss it....(the glasses)

Hope you like the pictures!

What I am wearing
Dress: BCBG
Necklace: Costa Blanca
Boots: Hush Puppies
Sweater: Jacob

Breakdown of Epic Proportions

2011-05-31T15:02:00.001-04:00

Friends

I am posting twice today (I promise tomorrow will be a fashion post) but I am having the most craptastic day ever. Today I am carb cycling so that means EVERY SINGLE MEAL FOR TODAY IS QUINOA AND TILAPIA

I am absolutely MISERABLE. I mean I feel nauseous. I don’t want to eat every time I put a forkful in my mouth I want to spit it out. Now its not that its not tasty I literally feel sick! Nauseous is the only word I can use to describe what I am going through.

On top of it, I am mood swinging heavily. I mean I've cried at my desk about 3 times now….maybe once or twice in the bathroom. Seriously?! Did anyone else feel like this…or is it just a phenomena related to me?

I haven't been able to get a hold of my nutritionist and I am now getting a bit hungry and I dont want to CHEAT I don’t want anything except the right food and I don’t know what to eat.

I was so disgusted with my food literally every time I looked at it I would feel sick that I threw it out. I am having a hard day. I felt awful during my workout this morning too….cant I just have a can of tuna and rice cake and call it a day? I mean Eating the same awful meal 6 times is just too much. Most days doable today…not so much…

Sorry for the rant….

Feel better just saying it out loud.

Training 46 days out

2011-05-31T07:47:00.000-04:00

Many people over the past few months have been asking me “why are you doing this?” or, “you look fine! and stop dieting”….Little do people know or realise that being involved in fitness competitions is a sport in and of itself. I also get asked why I want to do this even though, inherently I am a VERY shy person and hate the limelight. Somehow blogging seems safe and at a distance, but at the same time, when people tell me I cant do something I want to do it even more to prove them wrong.

Those of you who don't know me personally, I was also overweight as a child and teen. Not super overweight, but I had extra insulation. I was a healthy person. I didn’t eat McDonalds, or fast food really, but I didn’t know how to eat and what foods were right for my body. I became a vegetarian and wouldn’t eat much in terms of protein and ended up as I would call it OD'ing on fruits and veggies.

Health has always been important to me. I went to school and became a Kinesiologist and worked as a personal trainer as well. Somehow I was able to help others, but not myself. I felt out of place among my family who were thin, couldn't share clothes with my sister or cousins and that too left me feeling awful about myself.

But I took control of my life and haven't looked back since. I learned what workouts provided results and incorporated meats back into my diet. The biggest thing I learned along the journey was cutting out refined sugars. Going home was the most difficult because my parents always have a fridge stocked with amazing goodies. But more and more these days, my parents are eating healthier and making healthier choices all round quinoa with curry instead of white rice, whole wheat flour and agave syrup instead of white sugar and so on and so forth.

Its become what I would call a food revolution.

I also took the plunge this year and hired a trainer and I WILL NOT GO BACK! I know its difficult for everyone to be able to afford one, but for me, having a trainer was most important in taking my training to the next level. Having a trainer really does help with going that extra step, that extra rep and provided guidance when I was feeling rough or down.

So to answer everyone's question about why I am doing this. Well.. IT'S FOR ME! I want to. I want to look amazing (though I know its fleeting) but learn how to maintain the body I have worked so hard for in both pre and post competition. I want to COMPETE AGAIN (I think its my good mood talking!)!

I'm 46 days away. Scared. Worried. And on an emotional roller coaster but today is a good day.

Lots of love friends.

N

Stroked Ego

2011-05-26T20:11:00.000-04:00

Friends

Last week I attended an event hosted by Blackbook Events for the opening of Stroked Ego an new mens store in Ottawa

The event was absolutely fabulous and met some amazing Fashion bloggers again and made some new friends too...

Here are some picture from the event.

Aren't these cuff links great?

Julia (from Fashion Keeper) and I

What I am Wearing
Romper: Urban Behaviour
Belt: BCBG
Purse: Vintage
Necklace: Brought as a gift from Africa
Earrings: India
Bracelets: F21
Booties: Coach

These Cupcakes were just precious! They had tiny underwear on them!